Wednesday, December 30, 2009

A Sexy Disease

Or maybe not so much.

I received a few gift cards for Christmas.

After traveling the busy streets of Cali in search of Cute Shoes to spend them on, I decided I'd take to the internet. Surely that won't let me down.

After searching the typical sites like Steve Madden, Aldo, DSW, Zappos, and a few others, I decided I'd hop into Fredericks and see what they had to offer.

I found these.

So cute!

And yes, I can walk in 5'' heels. And I will continue to wear them until the day I die. LOL! At only $19.99, these puppies were sold! Until I looked at the available sizes. Why is 9-1/2 always gone? I thought the average was 7 or something like that but my size, NEVER available.

Damn it!

So I gave up on my shoe search and the very next site I visited was TIMS. As they describe it, it's an Unbiased Multiple Sclerosis Community. I visit to help people with the very little experience I have, but also to hear what others are doing or learning about MS.

When I went from the 'Sexy Site of Fredricks of Hollywood' to the 'Gloom and Doom of my Reality', I felt a huge pull on my heart. A sinking feeling. Ugh!

No disrespect to TIMS, I love the site and it has been a great outlet for me and the people are wonderful. I will always continue to benefit from it...

BUT

There is definitely a mood switch when you go from something you enjoy seeing/doing/thinking/imagining whatever, to something you have zero joy for.

Multiple Sclerosis, You Suck!

Another lesson learned. Say YES to the upper's. And NO to the downer's. I'm not talking pharmaceuticals here. People, places, websites, and just things in general that you love.

I love Cheesecake. And Shoes!

4 comments:

Lea-Ann said...

Sarah-
I just wanted to say thanks for putting your story and thoughts out here on cyberspace. I found your blog off of TIMS. I am in the process of diagnosis for "something" - and MS is on the table. I have a head MRI scheduled for Jan. 14th. I too have been through a series of docs and finally got set up with the a Neurologist who specializes in Neuromuscular. I too finally felt like I got a doctor who listened (for over an hour) and looked through all my testing thus far and knew what he was doing. I've read through your blog and have found so many instances that feel like my life right now. I don't know if I should be happy to be close to a diagnosis of all the issues I have been having for 7+ months or "scared" of what diagnosis I might get and what my future may hold. I'd really like them to tell me it will all go away - just take this antibiotic =). But I know that probably won't be the case =)! I too am trying to take it all in stride and stay positive - I know that whatever happens is out of my control and all I can do is decide how my attitude will be. I am also a Mom (mother to 5 kids) and a Military Wife. Anyhow, it's nice to "meet" someone who has gone through and is going through something similar.

Blessings,
Lea-Ann

The Pitter Patter Boutique said...

Hey Lea-Ann,

Thank you so much for reading and commenting. And I'm so sorry you find yourself on the path to a possible MS diagnosis. But luckily, you have found a Doc who will give you the attention and service you deserve. They should all be that way, I don't understand why it's so hard to find a decent Doc, in any speciality, these days.

It is very nice to 'meet' you as well and if you have any questions about anything, you can email me at sarah@thepitterpatterboutique.com.

Take care and hopefully I'll talk to you soon.

jen horn said...

Sarah -

how ironic, i happened to stumble across your blog through TIMS as well. i can't tell you HOW much i can relate to your issues with copaxone! i'm 29, an attorney in frigid ohio ... and 5 months before i got married this past october, i was officially diagnosed with clinically isolated syndrome, aka, one step below clinically definite MS ... but apparently i'm heading there. what a year. anyway, i am beyond determined to be healthy and kick this in the butt, so i started copaxone in august, changed my eating, you name it. the thigh shots suck!!! fortunately nothing's gotten worse (yet), so i guess it's worth it? i can relate to anything MS-related you've posted on your blog. hang in there and thanks for your thoughts. always nice to be reminded i'm not alone :)

- jen

The Pitter Patter Boutique said...

Hey Jen!

Congratulations on your recent nuptials. I'm so glad you found my blog and can relate to all the crazy stuff I go through. Although, I wish you didn't have to deal with it too.

I stopped the thigh shots not too long ago and have been very happy (as happy as one can be still having to inject themselves daily) since. Now my biggest problem is the itching. Argh!!! More on that later.

Thank you for reading and I hope you stick around and read more. :) If you ever wanna chat, I'm always here.